難以抗拒你容顏

思想膚淺的人﹐最近遇到了好多個。可能我不太懂得與他們溝通﹐所以常被他們所氣。

發現很多人都很在乎名譽和金錢這兩個東西﹐因此近來我都不是很樂意透露自己的職業﹐以免讓人誤解我是個有地位﹐又有好多身家的。有幾個大白痴竟以為我住洋樓﹐養番狗﹐以燕窩來洗臉﹐用魚翅來洗腳﹐結果當發覺我原來是家徒四壁﹐兩袖清風後﹐暗捶自嘆自己瞎了雙眼。說起來又有點可憐他們。

人﹐往往都不容易滿足﹐ 又是還貪得無厭。也許這就是人的本性﹔每個人都是貪婪的﹐只是貪婪的程度因個人而異。忘了在哪兒讀過這一篇文稿﹔人﹐不僅會被一個性格和思想跟他自己本身非常配合的人所吸引﹐甚至會選擇一個已自己樣貌最相似的伴侶。有點自戀吧﹖

太少選擇的確好辛苦﹐因為不知該如何去選﹐因為樣樣都是爛貨﹔太多選擇並不見得是件好事﹐畢竟會讓人三心兩意﹐難以決定。嗯﹐好矛盾噢﹗

本週主題曲 - 張信哲 - 難以抗拒你容顏

戀上一個人...

前一陣子﹐有人向我定下了二十個月的約定﹔在限期內他嘗試戒煙﹐而我就儘量瘦身﹐然後在我畢業後隆市想見。

好像有點像童話的感覺吧﹖還是像瓊瑤的愛情小說似的﹖有點質疑自己是否真的如此還有吸引力,還是只是說說而已﹐到頭來又是一場夢。跟愛情兜兜轉轉都已四五年了﹐也該醒醒了。童話也許根本不存在﹐都是騙人的。哈哈。雖然有時很矛盾地對童話類似的愛情有些向往﹐但最後也不是自打嘴巴﹐打掌醒自己﹖

喜歡上一個人的時候﹐感覺的確很不一樣。茶不思﹐飯不想﹐卻精力充沛﹔不必睡覺﹐不必如廁﹐腦海裡想的是他的臉孔﹐他的樣子﹐他的背影﹐他的聲音。全都是他﹐他﹐他﹗這種滋味好爽噢~﹗但從醫學角度來評估﹐這和精神分裂症並沒有兩樣啊﹗

也許在單身十八個月後﹐是時間該讓自己的感覺流露一下了吧﹖

本週主題曲 - 游鴻明 - 戀上一個人

Shall We Dance?

It's been a while since I've posted an English entry. People have given me some comments on my Mandarin; yes I know my Mandarin sucks big time, but then it was still a good attempt.

I've went to the mooncake festival thingee in Carpenter Street; like any other festa it was flooded with people, something which I do not really enjoy. Erm, shoulders rubbing against shoulders, and sweat streaking body odour perspiring in the air, you get the idea, don't you? Furthermore, there's always this deafening music harrassing your ears and your insanity as well.

I walked by this group of young people who's toying with some chinese musical intruments. Among them was this cute guy who's doing the cello, and gosh, he's so cute! Well, the cuteness maybe a lil' subjective, but what is undeniable is that he's so damn talented! He played so well!

I always have the hots for guys who are talented and they just drive me wild! Those talents are really like an asset that has no definite values. Well, if you like 'em, then you really like 'em.

At times I kinda regret for not learning properly during my music classes while I was still young. Or maybe I don't have such musical talents, as I always ended up being goated by my piano teacher. Then I hated those piano lessons; there were always an excuse not to attend them. Nonetheless, I kinda feel the agonizing remorse for not appreciating those lessons. I wish I could still play...

Watched Take The Lead while sleeping over at Emie's place. Erm, not bad, and I live the cool dance moves (althought I can't dance / I dance like a cow)!

Song of the Week - The Drifters - Save the Last Dance for Me

新不了情...

有位與我在網上聊天的阿邊個最近向我透露說﹐很期待再遇到我以前那副感性的我。嗯﹐很不幸地﹐感性這兩個字﹐已不再適合用來形容我了。

對﹐我依然還是很個典型的雙魚座﹐但是時間思想也該成熟些了吧﹗從第一次戀愛到現在﹐分分離離﹐愛愛恨恨﹐也經歷了不少﹐也該膩了吧﹖

曾經一時興起﹐感慨地寫了這一句。煙已散﹐火已滅﹐燦爛亦不再﹔情已逝﹐人亦走﹐深情亦不再。可能活得越老﹐就越習慣孤獨﹔或是舌頭兒已習慣苦澀﹐再也嘗不出美酒﹐猶如別人所描述般的那種甜美的滋味﹖

每一次在戲院或電視上看了些愛情片﹐心的漣漪也不禁蕩了起來﹔有股想再次去愛和被愛的衝動﹐但是始終被意識壓抑著。人都不停的在學習﹐這也是一種自我保護﹐自我療傷的方式啊。嗯﹐很矛盾吧。心裡也知道影片裡的那種轟轟烈烈﹐感天動地﹐鬼嚎神哭得戀情根本是虛構的﹐卻很諷刺性的說服自己有時真的會有好結局的。

所以﹐要掌握自己的命運﹐決定自己的愛情線怎麼走﹐還是聽由天命﹐讓命運安排呢﹖是你的﹐真的會是你的嗎﹖還是本來是你的﹐若不去爭取﹐就不會是你的﹖

本週主題曲 - 萬芳 - 新不了情